Half Meant

Diba? Umamin na kasi. Kahit ako man gawain ko rin yan. Pero hindi masyado. Kasi alam na ng mga babae ang mga banat na ganiyan. Ipost ba naman sa internet, isama sa mga GM, pag-usapan palagi, ehdi kumalat na. Mga diskarteng pasimple lang at dinadaan pa sa joke kasi walang lakas ng loob para umamin. In short, torpe haha.

Nakakatawa lang sa tuwing nakakabasa ako ng mga ganito. Nakikita ko kasi ang sarili ko dati. Parang ganyan na ganyan ang mga banat ko sa mga babaeng crush ko. Ayon, awa ni bro, lahat palpak. Lahat dun na lang nagtapos. Hanggang crush na lang. Hindi man lang umabot sa point na beyond friendship na ang feelings para sa isa't-isa. Sabagay, hindi naman kami close nung mga naging crush ko. Hindi ko nga kilala yung iba eh. Kahiya kasi lumapit at magpapansin. Parang iisipin nila kulang na ako sa pansin. Pero ayos lang, kasi bata pa ako nun. Ngayon hindi ko na ginagawa yan, dahil malamang, alam na ng sasabihan ko na talagang crush ko siya kahit lagyan ko ng "JOKE" sa dulo. Gasgas na yan tol, iba na in ngayon.

Naalala ko tuloy nung minsan na may kasama akong taong malapit sa akin. Matagal kaming hindi nagkita at nagkakwentuhan. So sa haba ng oras namin na wala na kaming ginawa kundi ang mag-kulitan habang nakaupo, nagjoke siya. Sabi niya, "huwag ka nang umuwi, dito ka na lang". Ui, aba ayos ah. Yun ang reaksyon ko pero sa isip ko lang. Hindi ko alam kung siseryusohin ko ba o sasakyan ko lang. Sagot ko na lang sa kaniya, "sige, gusto mo dito na ako tumira para lagi kitang kasama, pero 'joke' lang". Tumawa siya tapos sabi niya, lahat daw ng joke ay half meant. Half meant? Sa totoo lang, nagulat ako kasi totoo nga naman. Na hindi talaga joke yung sinabi ko, yung tipong sinadya ko talaga sabihin, nilagyan ko lang ng word na 'joke' para hindi niya seryusohin. Diba? Mga lalake diyan, huwag na kayong magmaang-maangan, alam ko gawain niyo rin ito, kaya umamin na kayo. Hahah!.

Sa tagal ng panahon na ginagawa ko yun, nakakahiya man aminin, pero bago ko lang nalaman yung term na half meant. Hehe Nakakatawa talaga dahil sapol na sapol ako sa sinabi sakin ng tao na yun. "Alam mo ba na lahat ng joke ay half meant?" Natulala nga ako eh. Hindi ko kasi inaasahan na madadali niya ako haha. Sira ang diskarte. Tapos palagi pa ako nakakabasa at nakakakita ng mga ganitong quote sa Facebook. Tinatawanan ko na lang, kasi masarap nga naman talagang tawanan ang mga kababawan ng tao. Haha! ^^

Logbook

"Logbook", pieces of papers used by security guards on duty. "Logbook", used by employers to record their time-in and out. "Logbook", it can be used by an ordinary people like us. But how?

An idea came in to my mind when a special friend of mine asked me to think a good title for a novel that tells a story of her life. There were lots of titles appeared on my thoughts. The first was, "pagninilay-nilay sa ilalim ng bituin" because I asked her what she does when she was thinking of the past. I found it poetic but it sounds awful and awkward to the personality of that person. Its also corny to use such titles like that. Ew!. And maybe she doesn't like it anyway. The second was "Larawan ni I_ _ _ _", larawan stands for a photograph followed by her nickname. I just want to tell that by looking at pictures, we reminisce the past. But like the first one, she did not like it. Until "logbook" struck into my brain. Why not use logbook as a title? That's a good a one, and catchy. I sent it to her immediately. Her first reaction was to ask me why logbook? Then, the idea came up, I explained that a logbook is being used to record all events from time to time. Every time that we need references, we look for the records in a logbook. It is the simplest tool for recording. In real life, most of the time, we usually stare at photographs taken from the past to remember what we have done during those times and what we were before. Some of us use to lay under the night sky and have stargazing all night while thinking of the times gone by. So logbook was a representation of looking to the past up to the recent event in our life, as long as there were pages in a logbook, the record will continue until all the pages ran out.

Logbook, who knew that this thing can be the simplest time machine.

Sam : Time-out : 1:11 am, January 5, 2010.

Sobrang Cheesy

Napansin ko lang, parang usong uso ngayon ang mga corning linya sa iba't-ibang websites ngayon. Nakakatawa pero rock! Lalo na sa Definitely Filipinos (isang group sa facebook na kinabibilangan ko), ang dami-daming pick up lines na simple lang pero nakakatuwa at minsan nakaka-inspire pa nga. Naisip ko tuloy, paano kung gamitin ko ang mga un minsan, maging effective din kaya? Kung tutuusin, marami namang pwedeng gawing diskarte eh, pero parang ito ang in ngayon, ito ang uso. Minsan nga dina-download ko pa ang mga gusto kong cheesy lines. Wala lang, para lang malibang ako. Siguro pag sinipag, pagsasamahin ko silang lahat at gagawin kong kalendaryo, t-shirt, or kahit simpleng wall paper lang. Para lagi ko silang nakikita at palagi akong matawa. Ano pa ba?

Kung may alam kayong cheesy lines, huwag kayo mahiya.I-post sa FB, FS, or sa kahit anong blog or social net. Mukhang uso naman ngayon eh. Malay niyo madiscover kayo. Isa pa, mas maganda ang tumatawa ng may dahilan, kaysa tumatawa sa kawalan.

True Love gets Tired, and gets on Track

Another day of December, its 21st now. I've been thinking, what will happen tomorrow? the next day? to the future? Are the things happening right now are really meant to happen?

These are the questions in my mind right now. Something is bothering me. I want to talk to someone just to kill the time. I don't want to stay in my room, I want to go out and explore new things. I want to spend my time to the people that makes me happy. Friends, yep, they are included in the list. Girlfriend, I don't have one. But I want to be with my previous girlfriend.

It sounds hilarious, to know that I still have feelings for her despite of almost two years of break up. I don't know what happened to me. I don't know why I can not move on from the past. I tried my best to forget everything. But it kills me every time I do it. Am I an emo? crazy? or what? Actually I don't care on what people say about me. All I know is, its hard to forget.

Last time, when I was updating my Facebook account, I found something interesting application. Its about quotations about love. What I got was this "True love never surrenders. It might get tired but little rest is enough to love again even better cause true love would never complain, it would always find way to understand pain."
It struck me. Like, wow! cool! And now I'm holding onto it. Its like having hope form being hopeless.

Now, I'm hoping again, that someday, we will be together.

Its Samy's: When I Met You by Decima

Its Samy's: When I Met You by Decima

When I Met You by Decima

When I Met you-a song revived by my band DECIMA.

This was our performance last May, 2009. It was one of our best performances ever.

2012

Today is December 19, 2009. I can't sleep, I just can't get over from the movie 2012. It's a very nice movie. You should watch it.

Its so alarming, what if it will really happen in 2012? Will there be any survivors? or the human race will totally vanish?

As far as I remember when I was in high school, I have read something about this phenomena. Its about the Mayan calendar predicting that in the year 2012, the Earth will die. I felt fear while reading. And after watching the movie, I realized that the end is really near. Yeah, I admit, I am convinced by the movie. But I had previous reading about this matter before watching the move. The articles which I have read shows evidences that there were records of different phenomena that relates to the Mayan calendar.

Its up to you if you will believe or not. For me, its time to change and surrender our lives to our God. Accept the truth that everything has an end. Who knows what will happen in the future. Only God knows.